not good enough

what is enough to the world?
my parents? what is.
I'm not proud nor angry
I don't deserve to be angry.
i have tried so hard, it sucks how some people see it as a waste.
its as if trying isn't good enough.
i can't be scared to fail, if I'm scared I have lost faith. i am useless at some point, I'm being compared to people who don't have the same interest as me, or who are smarter than me. it's just like why others can do it? why can't you? you dont have a problem, so what is the problem.
what if i say i don't know how, or i didn't answer it right?
why is it wrong to make mistakes. i can write so much, but i can't prove it.
what am i?
i am a disappointment,
i have to get through this, i won't be angry if i suffer, or i feel pain
because my pain can't be as worse as jesus.
he suffered so much. why am i complaining? should i be complaining?
i need something good to happen right now, i'm beginning to blow up but just slowly.
i got myself in, i need to get out.